There's who I am. And who I want to be.

I met with a friend for coffee the other day. I didn't at all expect to be the one to lay it all out there. The one to say, "Here is my crap. It stinks. Let's look at it." But I was. I felt overwhelmed with the amount of things I wanted to change. And I think, just maybe, she was surprised at how badly my crap smelled.

So rarely we are honest about our present state. At first when we choose to be, it is easy to feel discouraged. We live in a culture that says, "This is who I am. Take it or leave.". They don't strive to change or be better. They just make a little effort to LOOK better. Celebs are the perfect example. Find some charity to stamp their name on - some "Save the Dogs Foundation". Makes them look good, but doesn't make them any better. Doesn't change their character.

Oh - to be like my Jesus. To be like my role model. To spend my life inching closer to His image. To not just have the appearance of a good person/friend/wife/mother (please ignore the order), but to BE her. To BE like Him. Yep. A lofty goal. But worth the effort. Yes. To excel. My marriage. I want an excellent marriage. I want to be an excellent mother. An excellent friend.

Baby steps.

Yep. An uphill battle that my family will thank me for fighting.